go NYP than shopping...

gi NYP today. suppose to meet jas at 12 O'clock in NYP. he wanna buy laptop than we wanna go & buy some clothing in town.. cm biase, dtg lambat sikit. at 12.30 i reach NYP already. CHECK2, bile dh smpi, jas msg, aku habis kul 1 ar, ade talk lagi yg aku kene dgr.. BHAEK Jas! HAHA! terpakse kene tunggu half an hour sorg2. Beli air beli roti, Gua kene duduk sorang2 lagi.. HAHA! than i halo halo Hadi Bear uh. nk tnye dia finish class what time. check2, bear pn habis kul 1. ALAMAK.. when my watch strike 1, Jeng3! nmpk ade Doreamon tngh turun tangga, CHECK2! Hadi Bear lh pki baju biru. hahah! than afew minutes later. Jas ngan Ain turun. like new married coupple. HAHA! after that. follow Jas go buy his laptop.. Jas beli acer seh. Phiwitt! BHAEK! after jas dh beli laptop, Me, Jas, Hadi & Ain go walk to NYP cca orientation booth. jln2, cari..... HAHAHAH! gerek.. than jas suddenly stop at a booth. the layout was name. MALAY DANCE. baek Jas! nk masuk Malay Dance, ckp je lh, tkya nk hide2. Ain pulak, nk masuk Malay Dance but was shy2. haha! hadi, cm biase.. aku tk tau.. ^^ haha! after Jas register his name on the Malay Dance booth, eh salah, Socer.. Ain peng, go meet her friends. Than left the three of us.(Bujang Lapok) Hadi dh lapar... so stop by at Mc Donnoe uh. while walking.. I notice this familiar looking person.. upclosed.. it was HER! yah HER! she was queueing at Mc Donald. I donnoe what to do. i knew, most probably she wouldnt wanna meet me. so i just keep quite. n stand one side. after a few seconds, she turns.. than she tegur me.. & say hie! buat ape kt sini? she looks rather shock & suprise indeed. I just smiled n say. ikut Jas :) short & sweet. after that, i took my steps & stand on one side & wait for Jas & Bear.. after they finish buying, i turn around, walk straight & nvr look back.. tk tau ar asl.. normally i will be the one who'se eager to see HER, but when i see HER, i donnoe what to do.. today is the day i saw HER after 4 months. Last was during O level results day. Haixx. SHE said, biar jauh di mata, tapi dekat di hati... YA RIGHT! bnyk lh dekat.. after that we proceed to one cafeteria & sit there to eat. i dont feel like sitting at MC. just dont feel like. abeh JAS sound. happy ar kau dpt jumpe DIA.. i didnt rply anything.. happy lh sgt2.. aku rase aku sorg je yg rase excited.. enth lh? i donnoe what type of feeling to show her.. i dont feel anything when i saw her. i donnoe what expression & reaction to show.. dh ar! shopping ar! buat ape sedih2. bubur dh jadi nasi, biji dh jadi buah, ayam dh jadi itik, kucing dh jadi kambing..




Gi town ar. lagi best. chill je. shopping, tkya stress2 pikir psl nie. Gi town, beli baju Tye-Dye ^^ haha! nk beli bnyk, tapi check2 tkde size.. so beli satu jer lh. today shopping tk pki bnyk duit tapi dpt bnyk brg. spent 60 bucks & get 5 shirt & 1 jeans. best kn. average cost, 10 bucks each. haha! lepas shopping, makan, lepas makan, balek.. HAHAHAHAH! kk. this one funny. JAS ^^ HAHAHAHAH! kelakar lh sia.. aku tk nk bilang ar. paiseh.. HAHA! malu sia. naek train semangat2 than check2, bile train dh gerak. kte naik sala train. HAHAH! JAS2.... during that time hadi dh balek dulu. so left me & Jas. confident seh kite dua nk balek, check2... amek kau. HAHA! penat ar kaki jln satu hari! k lh. tomorrow school oi. nk tido nie! Baek JAS! (wink2)

picnic at East Coast

On 7 April, which is on the last three days, haha! terlambat post lah.. gi picnic ngan Azy, Hadi bear, Fahmy, Yan, Zul, Alee-Y, Maisara ade lagi lh.. supposingly nk kene meet kul 11, tapi end up kul 12 baru jumpe..when reach East Coast, we bought 5 big bottles at first & additional 3 more bottle later on. the weather was not hot actually, but the humidity.. was to the extreme already. haha! when reach there, the five of us, played with sand.. haha! built sand pyramid, maen korek2 lobang abeh sembunyit kn bola than suruh org carik.. volley ball until my body is buried into the sand. & we also played kite.. cool dok main kite. haha. fun.. than we go park way parade.. from ECP, we saw the building like it was near.. when we walk.. peh jauh.. we perspire alot during that day.. haha! than went home by bus.. Fahmy & Azy were really good sleepers.. both of them sleep than suddenly react as if they were electricuted by something. like a sudden shock. haha! they were too tired i guess.. reach home, tido ar..

What happen de? i donnoe..

It has been around 8 months we contacted each other.. nearly everyday we will contact each other.. on the first two months of contacting her, we shared a lot actually in between the two months. love.. tears.. toughness.. many more.. she gave me high hopes for that two months.. extremely high i should say.. suddenly, after that two months of everything, i felt a sudden change from her.. there was something about her that makes me feel different, i could feel it back than.. how should i describe..... from a high expectation that she has given me, it all went down low.. as low as the sea from the sky...


But weird.. for eight moths of noeing one another, we only went out together ONCE.. yes only once.. the first (or maybe last?? I'm not sure..) time we went out for a date together was 5ve moth ago. around December.. why never go out again?? all this while, i had ask her out NINE times. she said yes! ONCE and for the remaining EIGHT times.......... you should noe.. the last time i ask her out was TWO months ago.. i was so sadden with what she says.. She said : ' Taufiq! could you stop asking me that question' eversince that day, i respected her choices of decision & never ask her out again... until today.... last few days, we talked on the phone... started chit chatting.... than suddenly she asked..'emm, suke gi pancing tak?' than i ask 'why?' she said, 'tkde.. gi pancing best tau..' than i ask 'really?? how you noe?' she answer.. 'tkde.. dulu i gi pancing best tau.............................' cool or what? she went fishing together with her guy friend & her little sister... that one i dont mind uh. i can't control her life.. when i asked, when? she said 'emm, around TWO months ago..' baekk ar... seriously.. i should say THANK YOU for what you've done. my heart really shattered into pieces after noeing that... & this was not the first time she play around with my feelings.. there were many more things that you've done that hurts me... did you noe that it all left a mark in my heart?? i think its best if only i myself noe about it


You used to say to me that you want us to be closer with one another.. but are we?? did you meant what you say?? you also used to say to this to me : 'where's all your promises that you have given me before?? is this what you want after all we've been through........' i think it should be ask the other way round My Dear....


I just realise that all the sacrifice that i've made for her were all wasted......... JASPER! FAIZAL! kau aje yg tau semuanya... apa boleh buat.. nasib badan..

how we started..

the first day i started contacting you was on 18th september 2009.. how i get your number?? well, it goes this way.. on 18th september, we were both late for school (we didn't plan this). i wake up late & you miss your bus to school.. when we reach school, we need to surrender our Ez-link card to Mr Gabriel & we are supposed to collect it back from him personally after school.. when school ends, i went to look for gabriel to collect my ez-link back but gabriel was no where to be found.. camouflage i guess?? after a hard time finding gabriel, i decided to call her to ask whether she has collected her ez-link back.. but i dont have her no! how?? than i check my side mirror n saw Azy at the back.. i knew that azy has her no, so cepat2 uh mintak azy.. that was the first time i had her number.. than the next following day, i donnoe how come my hand was so itchy to go & text her.. & eversince that day, we frequently text each other.. slowly, we started to get closer with each other...

on 16th october 2009, was a very special day for her. it was her SEVENTEEN's birthday. & during that same particular day, our school host a graduation night which was located at our school and the event starts on the evening & ends at night.. one day before her birthday, when i was texting her, my heart told my mind to make a move to send her back home.. she lives quite far actually from school, her house was on the east side of S'pore & our school was on the west side.. so it wont be good if a pretty lady like her were to go back home alone. on her birthday somemore.. so, i ask lh.. after the graduation night & everything, we went home together & on that day was my first day to send her all the way until her doorstep... & on that day was also my first day to reach home at 12 midnight with my school uniform's on...